I thought about posting several times over the last few days but never felt the time was right, and I don’t know if now is the right time either. So much is unsettled for me and fear that lately I’ve been getting myself into fights (not literal fights but I mean verbal/online confrontations) that I have no call to be in and otherwise distracting myself from what the real business of my life should be about. I may very well pull back for awhile and if I do, it is because I’m concerned with where my life might take me. (I need to start blogging about other things besides how ****ed up the world is right now… despite appearances to the contrary, there is a lot of beauty and goodness out there. I need to start seeing it again.)
Anyway though that the’s news for now I guess. Things have been pretty weird lately and this law school graduation thing has certainly been far crazier than I would have guessed possible (not the actualy graduation but rather just the feeling of life uncertainty that it has brought me). Anyway I’m hoping I get over my weird feelings and enjoy tomorrow (it will be good to see all of my family tomorrow and to finally get that blasted J.D. that I’ve been working towards for so long), but I right now I definitely feel rather anxious about it all.
One little thing I should add that the last few weeks have been made a bit lighter by my discovery of The Grateful Dead’s American Beauty album. I never was a big fan of The Dead in the past (of course I had heard little of their music to judge them from), until I saw the last episode of Freaks and Geaks (one of the best shows ever put on TV… I got to see all of the episodes recently thanks to the good folks at Netflix) in which the album plays a huge role in how the episode (and the series ends)
Anyway after seeing the episide I knew I had to get the album and I gotta say that I am so, so glad I did. It’s been a long, long time since an album has so effectively seaped into my soul, and it most definitely has brought some smiles to few recent days that otherwise were almost overpoweringly dark.
Hi Matthew,
I recently was reviewing your posts and Aaron’s board as well. I noticed that you have graduated this weekend. Congrats! I know that you have worked hard for it and your perserverance will pay off. Now that you are through with school and after reading this last post, I hope that you will take time for yourself to enjoy some of it, rahter thatn take on all of the worlds causes on your shoulders, even if it is for only a short time. 🙂
Oh and on a side note if you were trying to reach my new blog they were having tech difficulties this weekend and so it was down. the new page is listed above in your URL box if you want to check it out sometime.
Leslie
Thanks for your kind words (and for your advise).
Btw, I like your blog. I didn’t know you were a geneology buff. I used to do quite a bit on my family but have let it go in recent years. It definitely is very interesting a lot of fun.
I also prefer nice, fun, interesting, worthwhile, friendly communications on the net. Just looking for trouble, as some people seem to do, seems like High School to me – during a very boring class, kind of.
I always ask when somebody says “I / we got in a fight” and I’m so relieved when they say “Only words”, so thanks for posting that right away, haha! Of course, why would you ever do such stupid stuff anyway, of course not, just kidding! And as a lawyer, you also know that physical self-defense is only justified in case of imminent or current or still ongoing physical attack, too, haha!
I hope my sense of irony is not misunderstood in writing…
But personally, I find it very helpful for dealing with unpleasant stuff, trouble, Republican-induced grievances etc.!!!
I know you might be very reluctant (to put it extremely mildly) to defend yourself physically if physically attacked because you are so peaceful and pacifist and non-violent but then it might go ill with you so I verily hope you won’t ever be physically attacked by a very dangerous violent criminal because without you, it would be way more boring on the net and I’m sure your kindness and generosity and helpfulness would be missed!!!
If you have your cell ready, you could at least call 911. The police officers wouldn’t mind helping ya out, I trust! Personally, I think it’s very important not only to be able to assert oneself but if need be, also to defend oneself in order not to be at the mercy of very cruel and violent people and under duress and abuse and violence and torment and utter rightlessness and deprivation of basic human rights.
Or maybe Sandy could make an exception of her usual peaceful ways and help to bail you out then…Sorry, just got too concerned and worried. Hope you won’t be attacked physically or anything!
Hope it’s no problem that I wrote that stuff…